In my earlier posts on my God walk, I described how as a child, I couldn’t reconcile God with fear, wretchedness and unhappiness. It seemed God took sadistic pleasure in making his followers poor, unkempt, judgemental and condemnatory. I figured if this was the reality of Christianity, then I wanted nothing to do with it.
Then I met someone who made me see that I could be a Christian and be intelligent, prosperous and free to live life to the fullest. I also fell in love with the deep mysteries of God’s word. I saw there was so much more to God than transactions – you give God money & worship and he gives you healing & prosperity in return. Now, I could study God’s word, just because. And I could spend time with him, just because.
I also joined a closeknit fellowship in school and all of a sudden, I had 70 friends at once. I finally understood what Christian love felt like.
But I was struggling with my new found relationship with God. I was dealing with a sexual addiction and just didn’t understand why I couldn’t overcome it with my willpower.
One day, after rising and falling so many times, God asked a question, “If someone were to ask you to describe me, what would you say?” I replied, “You are loving, kind and longsuffering.” Immediately I said the word, longsuffering, a light bulb went off in my head. I was struggling with guilt when God had forgiven me over and over again. Every time I fell, he forgave. He was longsuffering. In that moment, God took over my struggle.
I’ve had so many God experiences but if I were to summarise what I’ve learned about him, I would do so in six points:
1. God is incredibly kind. He uses failure to teach us and he never condemns. Even in those moments when I’m about to do the do with a dude, like Optimus Prime, he reminds me, “Did you forget who you are?!
2. God has an incredible mind. He is very intelligent. I sit at the back of church for a few reasons, one of which is I like to tap into the inspiration of the Holy Ghost. When the Holy Spirit steps in during worship, my mind connects with his and I write. I do not want to be distracted and I do not want to distract those around me.
3. God wants to be wanted. There was a time I used to meet with God at 7pm on Thursdays. Several times, he would get there before me. One day, I asked why and he said he looked forward to our meetings. If you honestly show up for God, he will be there waiting for you too.
4. God wants to speak with his children all the time. It’s his default setting. My heart aches when I hear of people fasting and praying to hear from God.
5. God wants to have a custom relationship with you. Develop your OWN relationship with God not a version of someone else’s. Stop trying to be like your pastor or some motivational speaker. Be you. I once told God that church customs wear me out and so I take a break on some Sundays. It is my relationship with God after all, and no one else’s. I may not connect with God through modern worship music, but I do so when I write. I am easily distracted when I pray, so I read the Bible and ask God to tell me what to pray about instead.
Be free to forge your own unique relationship with your heavenly father.
6. Give your life to God, even if it’s in stages. I have given my writing to God. But there are so many other parts of my life I am yet to give. It’s the reason I cannot sing, I Surrender All, in good conscience. I would be lying. Today, take the first step in giving your life to God and watch as he gives his life to you in return – his peace, his joy, his intellect and his unflinching loyalty.
Thank you for reading.
PS: If you’d like to begin your own God Walk, it’s easy. Simply say a short prayer now asking Jesus to walk with you and acknowledging him as your Saviour. Then begin to read the Bible for yourself to become acquainted with God’s thoughts. (You may search for my “Study Notes” to help you.) Send me an email if you’ve said this prayer.Be free to forge your own unique relationship with your heavenly father. Click To Tweet God wants to speak with his children all the time. It's his default setting. Click To Tweet God is incredibly kind. He uses failure to teach us and he never condemns. Click To Tweet